It's been a week I tried to stay away from twitter. I think, that way I can find some peace. I was afraid when I opened my timeline I would read your name. I was kinda wondering why you didn't ask or look for me at the beginning but slowly I began to forget it. Regardless as my nature as a human being, I made a mistake today. Big one. I seemed looking for a way to hurt myself. I read through a girl that-I-know-she-has-a crush-on-you timeline. I always thought there's nothing happened between you and her, but I guess I'm wrong. Don't blame me that I know you a little bit too well. How you speak, how you make a joke, how you're able to make any girl would die to have someone like you.
It was you that she talked about in her timeline. It was you that made her laughing out loud. It was you that she admires. It was you that made her happy. God only knows, you both love each other.
I felt my shoulder was shaking and my eyes started to blurry because of tears hanging in my eyes. I leaned against the wall and held my head. Deep inside my heart, I knew...I was never her. However, I kept telling myself that it was tears of joy. I'm happy that you finally found someone. I'm relieved and sincere for my best friend has won the best woman. Now, I really should be happy, with or without you.
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