head versus heart

It's 11.41 pm on a Sunday night. I should have be asleep because tomorrow is Monday and I have to go to work and do my routines and catch up with many great things that will happen. I was in the middle of arranging a "Super Monday" playlist when my ears caught a song from Damien Rice's new album. Damien Rice, I like him and his melancholic poetry that translates as songs. 8 years of hiatus and he came back in the same charm. I listened to the song carefully and got "greatest bastard" word  in it.

Am I the greatest bastard that you know?
The only one who let you go?
The one you hurt so much you cannot bear?

You know when you recall someone that remind you of one thing/one song/one movie/one act but you also know that it was when your heart ruled your head?. EXACTLY, I was in the middle of THAT situation. In one second I would like to see how's he doing and in another second, I would very much remind myself that "cmon Aya, everybody is moving on and forward with their life. Why you bother to look back on some sort of endless pain?." At least my brain was working really well. I totally can hold the urge to look up at him. 

He was my personal greatest bastard. In every girl's life there must be one bastard as a lesson learned. BUT, if I'm sorry that you've always been with gazillion of bastards continuously  then it must be something's wrong with you, or your head. I know the feeling of confusion when I can't go forward just because I don't know which way I was facing. Even worse, you can not rely on anyone but yourself. I was thinking why the heck I'm hanging myself on the reverie?. That he will come, again, this time in a shining armor and picking me up, saving me. I ain't a princess in Disney's fairy tale. I was paralyzed, I was not able to see the good in anything and anyone for quite some time. 

Family, friends and love found me just in time. It lifted me up to see the joy of the world. Brought me back as a person I should be. I am me again because my head told me that the insecure/pathetic girl is not me. The letting go process may not be as easy as a movie or a song told you, but it taught me to be a little bit stronger. Because life is much more that just loved, beloved and brokenhearted. It may be rain in your heart, but please keep the rainbow and unicorns in your head. 

♪ ♫ ♪ Damien Rice - The Greatest Bastard ♪ ♫ ♪

ghost

I was trying to recall what I had the past 4 years.

Probably nothing.

Or everything that matters to me the most.

The audience settled in. The theatre dropped dark. The curtain rose. Him and I stood on the stage, ready for the play. Did I play my role well?. No one know. All I know, he got the standing ovation from the audience. I forgot to tell, the audience was set to be silent so there was no cheering. As for him, the role that he played for another 4 years got a long standing ovation but no one said a thing about how good he was. It was simply silencing.

Unfortunately, silence speaks. It speaks harder than the talks. Exactly when I got tired, giving all my best performance every night, every day, and sad but true, years ahead. I don't have to ask him what he feels, because those standing ovations tells me. Of course he's proud, appreciated, and loved. He did good. He made me feel alive to play my role on the stage so I didn't feel sick to perform my role along with him every night. Until I  have to find a hurtful fact by myself when I went back home. I passed another small, luxurious theatre. There he was, on a catchy poster with a lovely lady in another play. 

I felt my throat closed. My feet were shaking. I mustered the courage that left in me to enter the theatre. I sat on the back and I saw him on the stage. His mischievous eyes landed a soft stare to his partner that I never knew she exists , his solid and good shaped body held her petite figure, his perfect hair stroked that woman's neck and his hands...The hands that never let me go now interlocked with her fingers. The audience rewarded him another round of standing ovation. He's as good as he was with me on our stage.

I walked out the theatre and I just knew that I have to quit my role and leave the stage where him and I have been performing all these years. I did my best performance and I did my worst. Lesson learned. The stage and the play taught me all I had to know and experience in life. Now the show is over and with a brief note of good bye, I wish you well, partner. 

paradise?. not so much

My friends on mainland think just because I live in Bali, I live in paradise. Like having a permanent vacation. We're all just out here sipping cocktails every night, shaking our hips, feeding our tummy in a decent restaurants and catching waves.

Are they insane?.

They think we're immune to life?. How can they possibly think our life are less screwed up, our cancers are less fatal or deadly and most of all, our heartaches are less painful ?.

We're still breathing here as a human being, just like all of you outside this beautiful island. We are definitely not in heaven, fellas

Island of Gods

I supposed to feel ecstatic about this, but in fact...I don't feel that at all. I am moving to Bali, leaving my comfort zone and be at peace, maybe. Wondering what I'm gonna do there is quite a nightmare, except I'm going there to work. Did I mention I'm gonna be alone?. Yes, fellas. I'm all aloneeee... I had the feeling unsure for several days ago. Too little time to prepare for everything but I must be ready. The 'almost' real life awaits me. 

Tapi..tapi..saya tidak pernah kurang beruntung memiliki orang yang mengajarkan saya untuk bersyukur. Tidak selalu mengajarkan, tapi mengingatkan. This is something I really want for years. Why am I supposed to not feel happy?. I should be grateful and happy ,rite?*woossaaahh..*

Whatever. I'm young and I got what I want. La belle vie *my personal mantra*
Soooo.. I better go now. The bags are all packed and the Island of Gods is ready for me!. 

photo courtesy : W Retreat & Spa Seminyak, Bali

Last Post of The Year

Kebangun pagi-pagi di tanggal 31 Desember dan saya menghela nafas panjang. Yes, it happened to me earlier today. Bukan langsung doa pagi, saya malah nangis. Menye?. Iya kali. Saya cuman nggak rela kehilangan tahun 2012. Nanti malam sudah New Year's Eve, besoknya bangun sudah tanggal 1 Januari 2013!. I did cry because I don't think that I've made achievements. Everything went by too fast and I'm not ready to move forward, yet. Tapi ya bisa apa juga sih kan ya?. Jalanin aja...Nikmati prosesnya dan jalani semuanya. Easier said than done. Soooo..sampe saya nulis postingan ini, saya masih mencoba untuk berpikir, "mau gak mau harus siap. mau gak mau harus maju. 2013 bakal lebih seru, lebih fun dan (sukur2) lebih mendewasakan."

Last night, before I went to sleep...I was thinking everything that I did back in 2012. I was trying hard to recall every (small) details and I only got the big picture. I'll write a recap, for the goddamn fun sake!.

January :

• Short trip to Bali few days after New Year. Whoooo...I'll be back as a living one there on 2013, starts January!.
• Another short semester *yawning*

February :

• I passed macroeconomics subject!. God, I never felt this happy
• Kuliah lagi semester ke-sekian-aduh-aku-males-ngomonginnya  :|
• Family issues...

March :

• 21st birthday. From now on, I'll be Forever 21

April :

• Mum's birthday and I was Home Alone.
• The last time you fall on me for anything like...
• Welcome to Spread!

May :

• Event Management project! Well done...
• Kenalan sama Folks! Coffee and Tea

June :

• I passed all the subjects this semester. Yadayadayada
• Lagi seneng-senengnya nulis, kenalan sama orang baru, ribut sama orang lama...

July :

• Ngerjain edisi pertama Spread. It was fun but...
• Puasa...tapi ga ikut puasa

August :

• Farewell di Bandung
• Lebaran...tapi ga ikut sholat Ied
• Back to school. *ewh*

September :

• Proposal skripsiiiiiii! Hahahaha...finally!!
• So long, Spread!. Welcome Girlliant.
• Let me handle everything in my life and you may go.

October :

• Proposal submitted
• Working on my alter ego *ewh* *blah* blog
• R.I.P Bude
• Hello, you...

November :

• Thesis proposal accepted!. SUPER YEAY!

December :

• See you when I see you, Girlliant. 
• Hello, Folka!
• Interview with W Hotel
• Got the internship at W Hotel! Yeayness!

Too many hellos and byes. It was bittersweet and another lessons learned for me. Why recap and not New Year's resolutions?. Because I hate plans. Fuck it off and live your life like there's no tomorrow. Celebrate it everyday!. Happy New Year everybody. I hope 2013 brings peace and happiness to all of you. 

i love

i love bolu kukus

i love baby blue

i love Hydrangeas

i love peacock

i love paisley pattern

i love the smell of butter

i love chocolate

i love your smile

i love old songs

i love secrets

i love Blossom Dearie

i love dogs

i love breakfast

i love movies

i love wedang uwuh

i love museums

i love Jogjakarta

i love Jude Law

i love coffee

i love beach

i love talking with you

i love Rosamund Pike

i love Beukenhof

i love almonds

i love Ralph Fiennes in The End of the Affair

i love riding on vespa with you

i love black & white

i love sambal matah

i love Greece

i love rings

i love tumbler

i love patchwork blanket

i love catholic church

i love central park,NY

i love Stratocaster

i love Kurt Cobain

i love hot chocolate

i love garden

i love cooking

i love to sing when i'm happy

i love writing

i love woody allen's movies

i love weezer

i love floral dress

i love white colour stuffs

i love to speak frankly to my friends

i love rainy days

i love pasta

i love cocktails

i love Hall & Oates

i love Earl Grey tea

i love Nancy Meyers

i love Bali

i love my sister

i love library

i love 2010

i love pear

i love to see you with your old guitar

i love being expressive

i love paddy field

i love being curious

i love beng-beng

i love dragonfly

i love Daft Punk's triangle stage

i love 70s

i love Michael Jackson

i love to see you with your mum

i love art

i love Fountains of Wayne

i love stargazing

i love seafood

i love tattoos

i love cute boutique hotels

i love bohemian outfit

i love black pumps

i love your cute and brilliant nephews

i love chevrolet camaro

i love stroking your hair

i love being imaginative

i love cuddling

i love rosary

i love intimacy

i love Bandung

i love french fries

i love watermelon juice

i love dim sum

i love ultra's mocca milk

i love India

i love pocky

i love France

i love christmas day

i love almond pretzel

i love vanilla scent

i love pony

i love watching spongebob squarepants with you

i love beers

i love wrapping presents

i love midnight

i love leather shoes and bags

i love Kanye West

i love body shop products

i love red underwear

i love bookstores

i love spending time with you and your dog

i love lace bustier

i love how my mum loves me

and i don't love you, no more

(not) live long and (no) prosper

        Bulan Januari sudah mau selesai. Time flies,uh?. Tahun baru dan Imlek juga sudah lewat. Bicara tentang Januari, tahun baru 2012 dan Imlek (as known as Chinese New Year or Lunar New Year), pasti kita familiar sama seasonal productnya McDonald's kan?. Junk food of the month is surely Beef Prosperity. Kenapa saya bilang surely?, pada dasarnya karena orang-orang di sekitar saya pada ribut banget ngomongin makanan yang keluarnya setahun sekali ini. Bahkan di tahun 2012, McDonald's Indonesia mengeluarkan dua varian Beef Prosperity yaitu single dan double. Whoa! welcome big tummy  :D

            Kemarin saya sempat ke salah satu gerai McDonald's di Surabaya karena ada titipan dari orang rumah buat beli most wanted burger ini. Jawabannya yang saya terima adalah, "maaf, Beef Prosperitynya lagi ga available,mbak." Oke deh, saya pikir cuman di satu tempat saja. Sampai pada akhirnya di gerai yang ke sekian, staffnya ngomong kalo masa beredarnya Beef Prosperity sudah habis alias expired. The end..

            Di jalan pulang saya sempat kepikiran betapa overratednya makanan ini. Saya paham konsep seasonal product yang bertujuan bikin customer pada kangen tapi dengan banderol harga yang sedikit tidak lazim (and since it's McDonald's after all..), baik untuk harga a la carte ataupun harga paket sepertinya nama Beef Prosperity ini kurang pas. Simply because its price brings no prosper for you. It's moderately high for a burger with local ingredients. Me personally crazy for Starbucks Cranberry Scone but I didn't eat it like everyday though I know it's seasonal product. Saya masih punya batas toleransi pada hal-hal kesukaan saya (dengan kerja keras menahan hawa nafsu, tentunya). I was trying to understand the concept of different people, different perspectives. I do love junk food..oh well, I do love salted french fries only....and BK's double whopper, Mushroom & Swiss Burger, Hershey's Sundae Pie yadayadayada  @_@ . I can't believe my eyes the first time I saw Beef Prosperity's ad on tv. They made it!. Mereka sukses jualan dan menggoda lewat mata pemirsa se-Indonesia Raya. Masih kebayang kan how juicy and luscious beef meatnya, empuknya roti burger and last but not least those tasty black pepper sauce?. I have faith that all have drawbacks and advantages.

            After all, tidak apa-apa juga sih kalau mau mengkonsumsi junk food selama tidak berlebihan (oh yea, I am so cliche) dan masih mampu..dan kepepet  :)  Karena tidak jarang saya juga masih kepikiran pasti ada aja orang yang willing to do anything to get it. Repot kan kalo akhir bulan udah ngebet banget pengen makan Beef Prosperity tapi keuangan lagi dalam kondisi ga prosper?, uang belum ada, ngutang bikin malu dan masa promonya juga keburu habis. Yang ketinggalan cuman ngenesnya aja deh. :p 

            Cheers!

me against the miom

            Here i am, spent today in front of a computer, still browsing, gaining information and I just won't give up. I felt somehow I'm lost. Today is not a good day, at all. Not because I'm trying to move on and the memories falls apart. Again, today I just can't hold back my miserable feeling , definitely not after the doctor at Dharmais said that, "dari hasil MRI, ini bukan kista ya tapi miom. Letaknya di dinding rahim, ukurannya berdiameter 12 cm and blablabla..." I lost my focus to understand what he said. I was totally speechless and pretty sure that I've had a serious moronic expression. I felt all the things around me suddenly shrinks and I was horribly suffocated. As my soul returned to my body, all I can say is, "what is this?. God, if You were somewhere out there, i don't have anyone to talk and please listen to me. Help me." Whoa I know that's too much for an agnostic like me, I rarely pray or you may say never and suddenly something is happening to me that I have to fight all by myself and I just asked God to help me. Really,uh?
          I am still hoping that I was dreaming this morning about all of this. I am hoping that the doctor's lying and I'm telling you guys a lie. Still I have to thank God, I figured this out before it's too late and the fact that the doctor wasn't making fun of me. Telling Mum is the hardest part but I passed it. My head can't stop saying,"sembuh, sembuh, sembuh. Fokus kuliah, selesaikan, lulus, kerja dan berbahagialah." Yeah, you think that's easy when I heard a voice said, "a complete woman,huh?. Keep on dreaming, Aya." I don't know should I considered it as a reminder or simply an annoying voice from nowhere. Geez God, I don't need to be perfect but I still want to be a complete woman.Happy and complete or completely happy?. Whatever. 
         The show must go on and this is not an ending. Can't wait to be back home and meet my mates tomorrow. Cheers!

are you ready for 2012?

             

        Christmas has passed and we all just can’t wait for new year. Say hello to 2012. This is the first time that I feel time really flies.  However, 2011 as I remember was a wild year. I always say my previous year was a wild one. Come on, is there anyone feel happy for 365 fuckin days?. Saya mungkin ga terlalu ngerasain gimana waktu itu berjalan sedemikian cepatnya, karena saya disibukkan oleh kegiatan dan perubahan-perubahan yang saya lakukan. Terlepas dari itu masih melalui proses yang panjang alias PR tahun lalu ataupun sesuatu yang memang harus saya kerjakan dan memberikan hasil yang positif sebagai penutup tahun yang manis.

        Am I ready for 2012?. Eventhough I say no, but I have to, yes?. I don’t have any excuse to say no. I believe it will be something great. I’m gonna turn 21, get my internship in Bali, and still..struggle to finish my study. Why the heck I should not feel ready for 2012?. I don’t think it’s something creepy after all. Mungkin bagian menariknya saya merasa tertantang. Ya bukan kaya tertantang buat naik sling shot atau bungee jumping juga. I’m craving to know what this new year will offer me. Proses pembelajaran dan pendewasaan diri yang akan masuk part 2 atau kembali ke kehidupan hura-hura menghabiskan masa muda?.

        Ibaratnya lagi jalan, kaki ini susah disuruh melangkah dari tahun ini. Not really my first time, tapi tetep aja. I can’t count my blessing, Tuhan begitu baik memberi saya segala kesempatan, semua kenangan dan orang-orang baru yang datang membawa semua rasa yang saya nikmati setiap detiknya. Lesson learned, people still changes. Some of them just left, others stay where they should be. Saya juga yakin ini semua tidak berhenti disini. Masih banyak lagi yang harus saya temui dan saya lalui. Berkata tidak bukan pilihannya kalau belum dijalani. Mungkin di tahun 2012 saya akan lebih banyak lagi menghadiri resepsi nikahan teman-teman saya, perayaan wisuda mereka, nonton konser (I wish),or simply just give myself a break for holiday. Bagaimanapun juga, saya menikmati semua proses yang terjadi dan masih menunggu what other surprises will come for me.

        Are you guys busy with new year’s resolution?. Because I am not. Ada beberapa faktor inkonsistensi yang bikin saya setengah mati ogah bikin daftar resolusi. Antara ga butuh dan takut my mission wouldn’t accomplished. Saya sadar, makanya saya berani bilang saya tidak dalam fase denial untuk benar-benar tidak mau bikin daftar resolusi. New Year’s Resolution list is not my thing, that’s it. Saya punya beberapa rencana yang tidak butuh embel-embel “I will blabla”. Tidak ada yang salah dengan daftar resolusi, some of guys mungkin butuh sebagai reminder, sedangkan saya lebih cenderung untuk finish what I’ve started. Stick to your plans, suck it up and finish it with pride. Pencapaian kita, baik itu mempengaruhi diri sendiri maupun orang lain akan selalu punya result point yang balik ke diri kita. Terlalu banyak ngomong akan melakukan ini itu, berubah sana sini juga tidak akan membawa kita kemana-mana. Ya Tuhan, saya baru saja menciptakan pengingat di dalam tulisan saya. Well, after all you guys should have some or could be a lot of fun on New Year’s Eve, get some sleep and say hi to the first day of 2012. Cheers!

   ♪ ♫ ♪ Lake - Celebrate ♪ ♫ ♪

beauty

 

Cantik. Kayanya hampir ga ada ya cewe di dunia ini yang ga suka dibilang cantik?. Entah cantik di muka atau cantik di hati. Jaman sekarang sih mostly mau di bilang pintar aja cukup. Soalnya cantik itu ga menjamin isi kepala. Ada benernya juga. Karena ga semua cewe yang packagingnya menarik, dalemnya menarik hati. Sering kan menjumpai cewe cantik yang kalau diajak ngomong ternyata ble’e dan ga nyambung?. No offense, girls.  Hehe

Tapi honestly, siapa yang suka liat orang cakep dan cantik?. Saya duluan deh tunjuk jari. Hehehe. Iya, saya suka banget liat orang yang good looking. Ga perlu high maintenance juga. Saya percaya inner beauty itu menyelamatkan jiwa-jwa yang tersesat. Orang-orang well maintenance itu bagaikan rejeki buat mata saya yang minus 5  *kelakuan minus akan segera menyusul*  :) 

           Saya pernah bilang sama seorang temen, percaya ga percaya “beauty is a curse.” Dia sempet menyangkal abis-abisan. Katanya keindahan dan kecantikan itu karunia titipan Tuhan. Iya sih, tapi di remehkan karena punya tampang yang bikin mata jadi jernih, penampilan yang modis itu juga hal yang nyata. Padahal ya ga bodoh juga. Paket lengkap perfect body and soul. Keindahan memiliki kemampuan untuk mengintimidasi. Sebenernya kalo kita pede ga ada masalah kok. Karena yang ngerasa terintimidasi itu biasanya yang merasa dirinya buruk rupa atau bisa disingkat lagi merasa serba kekurangan. Hidup ini berat dan ga adil, sodara2. Penampilan ala kadarnya pun tak luput dari diremehkan. 

           Apapun kondisinya, selama kita bisa berpenampilan nggenah, enak di lihat orang lain dan menciptakan rasa nyaman bagi diri sendiri itu merupakan suatu bentuk apresiasi  Terhadap iman kita lebih tepatnya. Karena, keindahan itu ada pahalanya. Noted : asal ga ngoyo aja mengejar pahalanya, takut kabur.

           

questioning consistency

I don't think I should be a wiser person to understand how important consistency is. Some of you guys would ask me, why the hell on earth you should concern about it?. I even asked myself, guys. The thing is I never talk about consistency at all, with no one. Not until my own roller coaster makes the turn. At first I didn't know whether it's good or bad, up or down, happy or sad for me to swallowed the facts. All I know is when someone's starting to criticize you, you can't use only your feeling to understand each of their words. Eyes, ears, heart and mind should be wiiiiddeee open. Or else you will committed suicide, because somehow it feels excruciating. 

As I quoted from Ian McDiarmid, consistency is very important when you're making films.He might be right. I referred films as life, our life. Life is a film and you'll choose what do you want to be. Director, script writer, actress or supernumerary?. Once you choose, just don't take it back. It may sounds easy and I wish it was as easy as it is to say. But one thing that I learned, you can change the world, the world in your perspective if you do have consistency formula inside you. Nothing to regret, because in the end it all be lessons for your life. What you have chosen and how you fulfill your destiny and your aim. Consistency brings you stability, you won't get through ups and downs like all the time in your life. Consistency boosts yourself with confidence. You will feel just fine with decisions that you take by default.

       "Give it a chance, to have some change. Change what you can change, let go of the rest"

A-Z (word after word pt. 2)

let's continue my "A-Z (word after word pt.2)". y'all set up?. because i'm so effin' ready for this! shoooooo....

L.

Langit : saya anak langit. yeah, bukan berarti saya demen maen layangan juga. tapi saya cinta langit, dengan warna biru mudanya, awan putihnya yg kaya cotton candy tanpa pewarna dan bisa berbagai macam bentuk, dengan lingkaran 'halo'nya kalo ada sinar matahari yang masuk  :)

Labirin : saya trauma sama yg satu ini. Pernah ga bisa keluar sampe 3 jam lamanya, ga ada yang nyariin pula dan yg paling parah adalah feeling lostnya itu. Hate it

Larung : ini kenapa juga suddenly nongol di kepala saya sih?. Dulu sih jaman smp, saya pernah bilang saya kalo mati ga mau dikubur, maunya di larung aja di laut. Jadi ga perlu ada tradisi ziarah yang isinya hanya akan menangisi saya yang sudah tiada. GR ya kalo dipikir2?

M.

Michael Jackson : sudahlah, saya fans berat MJ dari jaman dia bocah dgn idung kaya jambu air dan kulit legam sampai dia jadi almarhum. Emang ga bisa bohong, figure satu ini HITS TOTAAAALLLL

Makan : saya suka makan tapi suka milih-milih makanan. Hahahaha, jadi selektif itu ga haram kan?. Saya juga ga selalu menilai makanan dari rasa tapi dari tampilannya. *I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to being such a food critics*

N.

November : saya ngga tau kenapa tapi saya selalu excited kalo udah mau masuk ke bulan ini + menjalani segala sesuatunya. Mungkin karena udah deket sama akhir semester ya? Hehehehe

Nonton : ini adalah hiburan abadi! Dan ga bisa di ganggu gugat keberadaannya. Sejauh ini sih masih nonton film. Coba saja kalo di tempat tinggal saya sering ada konser atau pertunjukan teater   *sigh*

Nona : panggilan kecil saya di rumah. That’s all…

O.

Oscar Lawalata : saya suka banget sama desainer satu ini.sophisticated sekali pas saya ketemu dia di suatu acara fashion di Jakarta beberapa tahun yang lalu. And yes, dia mirip sama Dian Sastro  :D

Obat : kalo orang lain bisa punya koleksi sesuatu yang keren, saya malah koleksinya obat-obatan. Setiap saya sakit, saya pasti menyimpan satu buah obat dari berbagai macam obat yg ada.

Opor : makanan ini ada dirumah saya kalo paaassss….saya kepengen makan makanan ini. Jadi ga mesti nunggu sampe lebaran. Ga kebayang kalo kepengen opornya sekarang tapi masih kudu nunggu ampe lebaran taun depan, ngecesnya kaya apa coba

P.

Pantai : saya cinta pantai !!. saya emang bukan Indah Kalalo dengan bikini, tapi ga perlu jadi seksi kan untuk menikmati indahnya pantai?  ;)

Porno : semakin banyak orang-orang jaman sekarang yang sering melabeli sesuatu dengan kata porno tanpa tau konten dan arti kata sebenarnya

Patricia Field : i WORSHIP her. Dia adalah stylist paling keren sejagad raya ini. Sex and The City will be nothing without  her

Patchwork : saya suka banget sama motifnya dan kepengen banget punya selimut dengan motif patchwork. Sampe sekarang belum kesampean. Dulu pernah punya tapi ga tau berakhir dimana nasibnya.

Paloma Faith : WHOA ! perempuan ini keren sekali suaranya. Saya bukan fans berat, tapi ketika namanya pop up di kepala saya, kata keren mengikuti di belakangnya

Q.

Quincy Jones : he’s brilliant. His USA for Africa : We Are The World project will always be in my heart  *hapus airmata pake tisu* (mu-laaaiiii LEBAY!)

Queen : NO! it’s not Queen Elizabeth. It’s Queen, with Freddie Mercury. Aduh baru nyebut namanya aja udah mau mewek. Saya bisa ngomong apalagi coba? THEY ARE A LEGEND!

R.

Romantis : saya ga terlalu suka cowok yang romantis dengan cara yang manis. Berasa….mmmhh, kaya jalan sama peran yang dimainin Vino Bastian di film 30 Hari Mencari Cinta. Hahahhaa

Radiohead : “You broke another mirror, you're turning into something you are not. Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry”  :)

S.

Seksi : itu JUPE. Hahahaha.ngga lah, seksi itu berarti smart. Ga melulu kudu boobs dan ass kan?.

Sehat : ini adalah sesuatu yang saya rindukan kehadirannya. Kayanya sudah lama sekali tidak bersua dengan sehat ini 

Sex : whoops! Did I just type sex?. Okay, let’s not talk about it. Ntar saya di block sama Tiffie Tweety. Hehehehe

T.

Televisi : saya jarang banget nonton televisi selain untuk nonton acara masak di saluran tv kabel

Tikus : bapak saya takut tikus dan bisa lompat-lompat ga karuan kalo ada tikus lewat. Betapa ga machonya kan?

Tabok : menurut kamus sih ya, to strike, to beat, to knock. Tapi ntah knapa kata tabok ini terdengar menggelikan

Tokecang : ini sih lagu daerah. Tapi saya ngga pernah hapal dari daerah mana (bisa-bisanyeee ngeles)

U.

Umbrella : “ella..ella..eh..eh..under my umbrella” no I’m not kidding.tapi ini yang bener-bener muncul di kepala saya. apa yang paling hits dari video klipnya?. Rihanna’s hair do.

Unyu : call me idiot, tapi sampe detik ini saya ga bener-bener paham sama arti kata ini. Kata ganti anak jaman sekarang buat gemes mungkin ya?.

Uwooooo : “uwo bergema”, “uwo orchestra”..geez I do miss 2010.

Udang : saya kapok makan udang!. Gara2 kepengen banget makan udang rebus, berhari-hari ngerengeknya sama asisten rumah tangga, akhirnya dia ngamuk ngrebusin saya udang sampe 1,5 kilo dan itu TANDAS. Malemnya saya pusing setengah mati.

V.

Valentine : is my halloween. ngga juga sih, tapi saya bersedia di telan bumi sehari saja dalam setahun dan yes, di tanggal 14 Februari ini. Ngerasa tacky aja kalo ikut ngerayain, even cuman ngasih ucapan.

Volare : artinya terbang (kalo ga salah berarti bener). Ini juga nama lagu (yang saya lupa siapa yang nyanyi, pokoknya trio gitulah).

Valentino Rossi : dia resmi saya nobatkan sebagai pria Italia yang paling ga ganteng sedunia. Well, in terms of public figure.

VOX : vox populi vox dei. Let’s skip

W.

Whipped Cream : saya demeeeeennnn banget ama whipped cream. Walopun yeah, resikonya berat badan langsung melambung jauh di timbangan

Willy Wonka : aheeeyy. saya mau jadi anaknya. Hahahaha, ngga ding. Saya pengen jadi ahli warisnya aja. Betapa menyenangkannya bermain bersama oompa loompa *betapa mimpi di atas mimpi* #sigh

Wewe gombel : saya mau ngga mau harus nulis nama ini. Soalnya dari kemaren yang nongol di kepala ya ini dan fyi, wewe gombel ga seserem yang selama ini ada di tv.

X.

X-Files : masa kecil saya dihabiskan untuk mabok alien dan ufo dan sejenisnya yang jadi kasus di serial tv ini. No wonder sekarang saya jadi semacam alien  *mengacu pada ejekan seorang teman*

XXI : aduh entahlah kenapa tapi saya kok lebih prefer terms 21 ya daripada eks eks wan ini. Walopun whole packagenya emang kelas premium

Y. 

Yahoo : long hail to Jerry Yang & David Filo !  *koprol* hidup terasa lebih menyenangkan dengan adanya situs ini  :))

Yeah Yeah Yeahs : saking ngefansnya….saya bertaun2 punya poni ala Karen o  :D  oh yeah, it was silly.let’s sing ! “Baby I'm afraid, of a lot of thing but. I ain't scared of lovin' you”

Yukata : hahahaha, saya pernah ngerengek ga karuan pas masih kecil gara2 yukata ini. Akhirnya dapet, dibeliin + bakinya. Yang ada malah kaya anak mafia hongkong migrasi ke jepang  :|

Z.

Zebra : I dunno why but I loathe animal prints, including this one. But I love the animal !

Zeus : bapaknya Hercules ! konon katanya bapaknya Achilles juga. Kalo ga salah inget berarti bener  *ngeles*

Zooey Deschanel : I like her classy outfit. That’s all, or perhaps I can add her eyes and her hair style  :D